30 weeks & counting . . .

dear sweet babies, 

we went to our 30 week ultrasound last thursday and got to watch you move and kick and squirm and keep hiding your faces from us. your daddy is so (sweetly) frustrated that you have always hid your little profiles for the last 7 months and we've been able to try and see you once a month! i just giggle and think, we've waited seven years for you two, and we have a whole lifetime ahead of us to stare at your gorgeous selves, we can wait a few more weeks.  keep us guessing little ones! 

the dr. said everything looked really good, the placentas, the amniotic fluid, your little bodies, the fuzzes on your head (yep, we even saw the first signs of your hair!), my blood pressure.  our only concern at this point is that i was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and we find out today if i have to start taking insulin (*Insert sad face here).  i can't seem to get my fasting (which is my blood sugar levels as i sleep) to come down and my dr. assures me that it is completely out of my control...

we're at that point now where if i do have to start taking insulin, there will be even more dr. visits and more visits to the hospital...more 'cautionary' procedures and many many more people looking after you two.  i have to admit, as disappointed as i initially was that i was gonna have to drive two to three (or more) times a week to the city ...i am now relieved.  because we are in that 'danger zone' where we need you to keep holdin' on in there, growing some more and developing your little organs.  and the relief comes from the fact that we have extra special care that so many other mommas don't get. it's something i will never take for granted and am thanking God for as I fall asleep and when I wake up in the mornings. thank heavens for extra angels watching over you two...it takes a lot of pressure off of me and my worry meter goes down.

on another note, we finished your bedroom! yes, we managed to squeeze all the decor, furniture and baby accessories we could in there.  it is so cheery and peaceful and organized and full of love.  your dresser is from your uncle jason who is (one of) your guardian angels in heaven.  we refinished it and your grandpa Percy smoothed out and worked on the drawers so that they would open and close quietly and nicely while you slept and i did laundry.  it is so beautiful you two, i can't wait for you to see it! 

even more so, i can't wait to watch you grow in there. i can picture it now: i will lay you two together for the first few months in the same crib until you can start grabbing each other and then it's off to your own.   i can't wait for the mornings when i wake up and hear you cooing or talking to each other through the bars and waiting for your momma or papa to come and get you to start the day. i can't wait for you to get excited to see your puppies (Eve & Ivy) or your kitties (Patience, Willow & Harley) each morning and not only receive but give kisses right back to them.  i can't wait to watch you explore your toys and read your books on the rocker/recliner (we're still waiting for this final & wonderful piece of furniture in your room).  i can't wait to help you recognize yourselves in the big mirror above your dresser and for you to smile like you do for the camera that will be in your faces all of the time.  i can't wait to snuggle your fuzzy heads and kiss your soft necks, to listen to you breathe and watch you discover all there is to know about life.  

i can't wait to just get to know each of you.  who God made you to be.  your authentic, beautiful and individual selves.  i can't wait for you to change my world from good to great.  

i can't wait ....

.......for life with the two of you. 

i love you deeply. 

xo

your momma