These days

:: we are anticipating 'babywatch' which officially begins in october. i will be 30 weeks along and with twins, i am told, is when we are to be 'watching closely.'  the hubs is homebound from any overnight travel, i am not allowed to travel more than an hour away and my feet must be elevated a few times a day.  with my mr. having a job that takes him away for many overnights a month, i cannot wait to have him home for awhile.  sleeping in our bed, at my arms reach, giving me comfort hugs when i start to worry whether i'll be a good mom or not and eating dinner together at the dinner table.  and of course, spending many a nights having what we call 'puppy appreciation' which entails puppy snuggles, walks, and kisses on the muzzle over and over and over again.

:: the weather has cooled and dropped to an average of 50 degrees at night.  the windows remain open, the fan blows right on me and for the first time in six months, i am waking up to a chilly feeling that is forcing me under the covers.  it is amazing.

:: healing in my heart continues to take place towards some broken relationships and i continue to remain extremely hopeful that these two sweet miracles will be a bridge back towards people both the mr. and i desperately and healthily want to have in our lives. i've heard that.  i've heard that babies give people a new purpose and reason to live. i can't wait to experience their gifts.

:: movies. television. couch potato nights.  we hardly have the tv on in the summer, if at all, but with fall here, shows starting back up, and my restrictive giant belly, i have a feeling we will be painted onto our couch watching as many movies as we can, and enjoying the last few times we have together, just us, zoned into a show and knowing that one day very soon we will not be able to do that anymore.

:: the crockpot is out.  recipes are being discovered. the oven is turned on almost daily.  comfort soups and stews are back and our bellies are enjoying the warmth of the food entering into them.  salads are less appealing and warm tea is how we finish our evenings.

:: candles!! they are out. and burning.  all day long.  now i just can't wait to get my christmas decor unpacked, play christmas music on the radio and smother our home in cinnamon and pine. *stop hating

:: prayer.  it has been consuming my lips daily.  filled with gratitude, humility, questions, fear, peace and desires for a safe labor, healthy babies and happy ending to the pregnancy.  asking for God to keep my heart focused on the right things, to keep comfort there in times of uncertainty when parenting is overwhelming and the exhaustion sets in.  to keep me humble and appreciative for every gift I am given when i look at my two dreams come true.  and to celebrate the two lives, that God knit together in my womb, for who they are...and who they will become.