nursery progress . . .

the cribs are up and the nursery is about 50% complete. mattresses have even been shipped! 

it's official.  we are entering our last trimester and the arrival of these two miracles is fast approaching. i can hardly believe it to be honest. 

i think i resisted putting together their nursery (or even buying cribs for that matter) because i felt like i was gonna 'jinx' us.  i know it sounds silly and even ridiculous.  but the reality i have to believe for every pregnant woman is that you're never really 100% at peace, until you hold that baby (or babies) in your arms.  and when you add a loss, or losses, miscarriage, infertility, whatever one's past road has been, it sometimes gets the better part of your mind and you find yourself having to stay present and grateful.  you have to force the gift to sink in: the gift of each day given in a healthy pregnancy.  

I am still learning that.  but my hope is on fire and i am randomly wondering into their room and picturing myself picking them up from their crib with their sleepy, swollen faces and kissing their plump cheeks, smelling their baby smells and holding them to my heart. 

 thank you, God, for the gift of them in my womb.  

 ... and for the dreams of tomorrow with them.  

each day, i am believing a little more. . . 

left to do is: 

** purchase a rocking chair/recliner that both the mr. and i can comfortably enjoy 

** finish painting/staining their dresser 

** hang the wall art/photos

** organize their shelves/closets/dresser drawers

** enjoy the room before their arrival! 

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