If you really knew me . . .

*One of my favorite blogs, Storyofmylife, wrote a post just like this one and I am absolutely copying her. I loved it because it's one of those things that not only do you get share a bit more of your personal & quirky self, but you get to celebrate your own individuality!

If you really knew me…

+ You’d know I wear a retainer to bed, every.single.night AND I have to brush my teeth before I even leave my bedroom in the morning.

+ You’d know I'm ridiculously afraid of storms, especially when my Mr. is out of town.

+You'd know I love animals usually more than humans. I miss my dogs when I leave them even for a couple hours and can't wait to see them anytime we're apart. Even with children on the way, my love for animals lies deep within my soul. I've been fearful (but often joked) that my children will one day say to me, "you love the dogs more than you love me!" 

+ You’d know I am in love with techno and dance music. I even want it played at my funeral.

+ You'd know I am extremely and obsessively critical of myself. 

+ You’d know I am a worry wort.  My mom used to call me it. I am still it.  I meditate, pray, run (when i'm not prego) meet with a therapist bi-weekly & yet I can't seem to not worry. I think it's just in my blood. 

+ You'd know I love to laugh. And loudly. And sometimes, I laugh when I'm uncomfortable or insecure....because laughter and humor always make me feel better and get my heart beating regular again. I think people don't always know what to do with me when I find humor in difficult times, but it's how I deal. 


+ You’d know I'm extremely anal. Everything has it's place.  And even though I'm learning to relax on some things (umm, hello, we have twins on the way) I will definitely stay organized and make time to do so. It makes me tick, it calms my anxieties (see above worry statement) and I honestly believe that teaching children to make their beds or put things back where they came from or bring their dish to the sink is a good thing. 

+ You’d know I hate pictures of myself. And I am not photogenic. I'm not an envious person, but I do get jealous of those who can "make a memory" and capture it with a photo and just look like themselves: happy and beautiful. not me. So I don't have very many pictures where I'm in it and I dream of the day when I will conquer that "issue" for I want my children to love the camera.  

+ You’d know I have a head filled with songs. Let me explain: sometimes, I just break out into song (and no, I have zero singing ability, I just really enjoy it) and everything and anything, moments and statements, remind me of some song....so I'll change the original lyrics up or just include them into a "moment."  It makes the toughness of life seem a little less tough and a lot more whimsical. Yes, I am weird. 

+ You’d know I dream of becoming an author. Writing a memoir. Writing everyday for a living to be honest.  But again, am deathly afraid of criticism and the brutality that comes with putting yourself out there.  I am praying and working that out, for I believe words and vulnerability connect people together.  And we definitely need more of that in this world. 

+ You’d know I am extremely low maintenance but dream of being more fashion forward one day. I live in comfortable clothing, wear only mascara and hardly blow dry my hair. I love long hair that gals let hang, but you'll always find me pulling my own back into a ponytail/bun. I love cute/comfy clothes and flats. I love showing off beautiful hair and I love accessories (cute bags, rings and fun earrings {i can't wear necklaces, they irritate my neck} ) One improvement at a time . . .  


+ You’d know I am too sensitive.  Though I try my hardest to become healthier, draw clearer boundaries and dream of the day I can exude confidence....I am still struggling.  I get my feelings hurt easily and fear all the people that may not like me. 

+ You’d know I am not a snuggler while I sleep. I need my space.  And even though I love to hug and be close throughout the day, and absolutely love having the mr. lay next to me so I can reach across and touch him at any point throughout the night, he only dreams about me letting him rest his muscular, heavy and overly heated arm around my waist while we sleep. 

+ You’d know I am obsessed with good smelling hand soap.  And candles. And baskets. I buy them anytime I have extra money.  For real. 


+ You'd know I want to live on a water, with a huge yard and a hobby-ish farmette. I want my animals to roam free, my husband to think that being home is his vacation, my kids to have all their friends over to play air hockey in our barn loft, swim and ice skate on our portion of the water and let the pups run in and out of the house, jump in the lake and lounge in the sand. I am determined to make this dream come true. 

+ You'd know there is not a day where I am not thankful.  Having lost my mom and brother so young, and walking many other treacherous paths through life . . . I, to a fault, protect those I love with extreme caution and awareness. I don't get mad easily and try to think the best of others always. I am appreciative for each given day and often times will write my list of gratitude on my facebook page or in my journal. It reminds my heart to embrace the now. 


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