4 months

;: it's been the best four months of my life. for real.  the highs have been higher than i've ever imagined possible.  the joy i have felt cannot be put into words.  adrenaline and gratitude have kept me running on fumes during those exhaustive times of trying to calm two screaming babies and breastfeed them at the same time.  

it has been surreal to say the least.  and i would be lieing if i didn't say that the journey, the length of time it took us to get here, the heartbreaking goodbyes we had to say....they all are part of that energy and gratitude that keep us going when it's tough.  and they are the reasons you will never hear me complain of the sleepless nights or the days without showering or the smell i acquire around my neck from spit-up.  i won't do it. 

because gratitude changes my attitude.  and i choose gratitude.   even when they still haven't taken a nap at the same time, or ever allow their momma to even sneak in 20minutes to herself a day (yes, i'm being serious, they are on the same eating schedule and the opposite sleeping/napping schedule).

so i start my list of gratitudes and even though it may take awhile to get there,  eventually i do, and when i do....my mind alters.   sorta like when i eventually make myself go running or exercise.  it's those natural endorphines that kick in and make all ok.  yeah, that's gratitude for my mind's sake.  it's a natural high...and it genuinely works.

but back to the real reason for this post.  4 months!  these little miracles are already 4 months old and there are days that i want.  to.  stop.  time.

and yet i'm loving how they are growing.  they are smiling. and cooing and becoming the little people God made them to be.  and they are absolutely wonderful.

my dear sweet svea;
you are so full of life!  you have found the television and, unfortunately, can't keep your eyes off of it when it is on. you are alert and you have your daddy's gorgeous smile.  bright and bold and beautiful.  your eyes are piercing blue and you are simply stunning to look at.  you love to smile with your tongue and your dimples shine through like two dots of sunshine placed perfectly on either cheek.  you are a ball of energy, enthusiasm and joy. you are social and inviting to everyone around you already. you still don't like to sleep, but i'm convinced it's because you are too excited for what each day has to offer.  you are ready to take on the world...and i can already tell that you will be one that makes things happens and changes us for the better...forcing us to allow you to learn and come to conclusions on your own time.  you rolled over this past week from your stomach to your back and were so proud of yourself!  you absolutely LOVE bath-time and get soo excited when submerged in warm water.  you love to talk and embrace anyone willing to do so with you.  you also have just discovered your sister and each morning give her a bright smile when i lay your head by hers so you can both give each other a good morning kiss.  you have started to babble with a soft voice and coo with a gentle pitch that is so sweet to listen to. you are becoming one amazingly beautiful little girl to watch my dear one.

my tender little maelyn;
your soul is so pure.  you are an observer and a lover of reading.  you aren't as much into television, except when baby einstein is on and then you can't keep your eyes off of it (you especially love the little zebra puppets).  you love eve and ivy and grin from ear to ear whenever they kiss your cheek.  you have a dimple on your right cheek that has made its appearance and your smile is killer.  you open your mouth wide and loud and crinkle your button nose and make sure that your pure joy radiates through it.  you also are our morning girl...we often find you in your bassinet just laying there all swaddled, waiting for someone to discover you...and when we do, your eyes light up and you start our days with your glorious smile.  it is heaven on earth.  you, too, have gorgeous deep blue eyes that your dad often calls 'bambi eyes.'  you look into our souls with them. you are wanting to sit up, assisted of course, and are filled with enthusiasm as you do.  you aren't quite ready to roll, but when you watch your sister, i think  it will happen soon. you are so sensitive, especially to loud sounds (including when myself or your dad sneezes) and sometimes it makes you cry. you, too, have started to talk and grunt as often as possible.  you make us laugh everyday with your expressive eyebrows and silly faces.  you are camera shy, just like your sister, and we are praying you outgrow this so that we can capture all of your fun and silly (& even sad) expressions, noises and faces for you to enjoy one day too!  you are becoming so fun and amazingly gorgeous little one...we are so in love with you!


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