:: i have never done so much laundry in my life...and i still run out of pajamas and cloth diapers for the girls. i wouldn't change it for the world...but i would change the fact that my laundry 'room' is in the basement. i will take note of how many steps i walk up and down every day for the reminder of what not to do in our future home.
:: pumping when you're breastfeeding is a pain...and though i once didn't mind it...i have grown to dislike it very much. i'd rather keep the babies with me at all times until they are weened after their first birthday and not have to worry about a bottle...ever. is that bad? i don't care, i still don't like pumping.
:: i think i may have birthed out my manners/social skills when i had the twins. for real. i was walking tonight with a friend and a runner/neighbor happened to stop by the two of us so she could meet the girls. i think we talked for like 8 minutes and do you think i even thought to introduce my neighbor to my friend? nope. well, once we walked away i did. ugg. i forget to return phone calls, even though i write them down on my 'to-do' list that i also seem to lose throughout the day. i am awkward all of sudden and run out of things to talk about, or sometimes i even forget my point in the middle of a sentence. i feel like my brain is mush.
:: i have no clothes that fit. they are either too tight on my still-sticking out belly. or they are too big and i'm that girl that walks around pulling her pants up at the grocery store. i also need new underwear. mine are all stretched out from my pregnancy growth.
:: my house is a pig-sty and for some blissfully insane reason, i don't care. honestly. i mean, do try to tidey up before i go to bed, but i am realizing that what was once so important to me, (well, it still is and i do dream of the days when i can organize with my little girls) just doesn't really matter anymore. i would rather have their books and toys and play mats and blankets and high chairs and boppies and swings taking up my whole living room than anything else. life is pretty great these days...and i just don't care anymore how messy and unorganized my home is.
:: tea. i am in love with thee. licorice spice, vanilla honey chamomile, mothers milk, lavender chamomile, the list is long and plentiful. i am addicted to it and drinking an average of four cups a day. yumm.
:: she is my kindred spirit. no lie. and i love her writing, her heart for others...and her courage to be taught every.single.day. she's gonna change the world...just like oprah. and i am excited to watch her journey. so very cool. when she said, "As a serious introvert with a deep need to connect, I’m always playing tug-o-war with myself. I want to run far away from the world – I want to sprint – open armed – toward the world. I want to retreat from people – I want to melt into people. I need escape and immersion simultaneously. " i thought: that's me! she's me! i am a loner wanting to hide behind my words...and yet i have an insane pull to be near, around, with and observing people. i always thought i was weird that i was both. now i feel a little less weird knowing there are others out there just like me. thanks glennon! :)
:: i am taking a month OFF from facebook, the blog-world, and pinterest in April. I cannot, however, depart from Instagram and the only reason is because I find taking pictures each day somewhat captures a mini-journal for myself & my family. but with the weather getting warmer, the priorities in my life shifting, life "stuff" happening every which corner i look at, I have to slow down. I have to pause more. Breathe In and out more. Worry less. Enjoy more. Let go of some things and let my good Lord take the reigns. And i know too well, that if i don't force myself into some sort of a 'cleanse' per-say, I will not do any of the above. So i'm doing it. I'm shutting down my two most addicting social media apps on my phone & computer and not revisiting them until May 1st. I am scared ....and so excited!!! TIme to start writing real letters again, cooking from my actual cookbooks, and enjoying all of my glorious moments with two of my favorite people on this earth: little miss S & M. Wish me luck!!
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Monday, March 11, 2013
4 months
;: it's been the best four months of my life. for real. the highs have been higher than i've ever imagined possible. the joy i have felt cannot be put into words. adrenaline and gratitude have kept me running on fumes during those exhaustive times of trying to calm two screaming babies and breastfeed them at the same time.
it has been surreal to say the least. and i would be lieing if i didn't say that the journey, the length of time it took us to get here, the heartbreaking goodbyes we had to say....they all are part of that energy and gratitude that keep us going when it's tough. and they are the reasons you will never hear me complain of the sleepless nights or the days without showering or the smell i acquire around my neck from spit-up. i won't do it.
because gratitude changes my attitude. and i choose gratitude. even when they still haven't taken a nap at the same time, or ever allow their momma to even sneak in 20minutes to herself a day (yes, i'm being serious, they are on the same eating schedule and the opposite sleeping/napping schedule).
so i start my list of gratitudes and even though it may take awhile to get there, eventually i do, and when i do....my mind alters. sorta like when i eventually make myself go running or exercise. it's those natural endorphines that kick in and make all ok. yeah, that's gratitude for my mind's sake. it's a natural high...and it genuinely works.
but back to the real reason for this post. 4 months! these little miracles are already 4 months old and there are days that i want. to. stop. time.
and yet i'm loving how they are growing. they are smiling. and cooing and becoming the little people God made them to be. and they are absolutely wonderful.
my dear sweet svea;
you are so full of life! you have found the television and, unfortunately, can't keep your eyes off of it when it is on. you are alert and you have your daddy's gorgeous smile. bright and bold and beautiful. your eyes are piercing blue and you are simply stunning to look at. you love to smile with your tongue and your dimples shine through like two dots of sunshine placed perfectly on either cheek. you are a ball of energy, enthusiasm and joy. you are social and inviting to everyone around you already. you still don't like to sleep, but i'm convinced it's because you are too excited for what each day has to offer. you are ready to take on the world...and i can already tell that you will be one that makes things happens and changes us for the better...forcing us to allow you to learn and come to conclusions on your own time. you rolled over this past week from your stomach to your back and were so proud of yourself! you absolutely LOVE bath-time and get soo excited when submerged in warm water. you love to talk and embrace anyone willing to do so with you. you also have just discovered your sister and each morning give her a bright smile when i lay your head by hers so you can both give each other a good morning kiss. you have started to babble with a soft voice and coo with a gentle pitch that is so sweet to listen to. you are becoming one amazingly beautiful little girl to watch my dear one.
my tender little maelyn;
your soul is so pure. you are an observer and a lover of reading. you aren't as much into television, except when baby einstein is on and then you can't keep your eyes off of it (you especially love the little zebra puppets). you love eve and ivy and grin from ear to ear whenever they kiss your cheek. you have a dimple on your right cheek that has made its appearance and your smile is killer. you open your mouth wide and loud and crinkle your button nose and make sure that your pure joy radiates through it. you also are our morning girl...we often find you in your bassinet just laying there all swaddled, waiting for someone to discover you...and when we do, your eyes light up and you start our days with your glorious smile. it is heaven on earth. you, too, have gorgeous deep blue eyes that your dad often calls 'bambi eyes.' you look into our souls with them. you are wanting to sit up, assisted of course, and are filled with enthusiasm as you do. you aren't quite ready to roll, but when you watch your sister, i think it will happen soon. you are so sensitive, especially to loud sounds (including when myself or your dad sneezes) and sometimes it makes you cry. you, too, have started to talk and grunt as often as possible. you make us laugh everyday with your expressive eyebrows and silly faces. you are camera shy, just like your sister, and we are praying you outgrow this so that we can capture all of your fun and silly (& even sad) expressions, noises and faces for you to enjoy one day too! you are becoming so fun and amazingly gorgeous little one...we are so in love with you!
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so i start my list of gratitudes and even though it may take awhile to get there, eventually i do, and when i do....my mind alters. sorta like when i eventually make myself go running or exercise. it's those natural endorphines that kick in and make all ok. yeah, that's gratitude for my mind's sake. it's a natural high...and it genuinely works.
but back to the real reason for this post. 4 months! these little miracles are already 4 months old and there are days that i want. to. stop. time.
and yet i'm loving how they are growing. they are smiling. and cooing and becoming the little people God made them to be. and they are absolutely wonderful.
my dear sweet svea;
you are so full of life! you have found the television and, unfortunately, can't keep your eyes off of it when it is on. you are alert and you have your daddy's gorgeous smile. bright and bold and beautiful. your eyes are piercing blue and you are simply stunning to look at. you love to smile with your tongue and your dimples shine through like two dots of sunshine placed perfectly on either cheek. you are a ball of energy, enthusiasm and joy. you are social and inviting to everyone around you already. you still don't like to sleep, but i'm convinced it's because you are too excited for what each day has to offer. you are ready to take on the world...and i can already tell that you will be one that makes things happens and changes us for the better...forcing us to allow you to learn and come to conclusions on your own time. you rolled over this past week from your stomach to your back and were so proud of yourself! you absolutely LOVE bath-time and get soo excited when submerged in warm water. you love to talk and embrace anyone willing to do so with you. you also have just discovered your sister and each morning give her a bright smile when i lay your head by hers so you can both give each other a good morning kiss. you have started to babble with a soft voice and coo with a gentle pitch that is so sweet to listen to. you are becoming one amazingly beautiful little girl to watch my dear one.
my tender little maelyn;
your soul is so pure. you are an observer and a lover of reading. you aren't as much into television, except when baby einstein is on and then you can't keep your eyes off of it (you especially love the little zebra puppets). you love eve and ivy and grin from ear to ear whenever they kiss your cheek. you have a dimple on your right cheek that has made its appearance and your smile is killer. you open your mouth wide and loud and crinkle your button nose and make sure that your pure joy radiates through it. you also are our morning girl...we often find you in your bassinet just laying there all swaddled, waiting for someone to discover you...and when we do, your eyes light up and you start our days with your glorious smile. it is heaven on earth. you, too, have gorgeous deep blue eyes that your dad often calls 'bambi eyes.' you look into our souls with them. you are wanting to sit up, assisted of course, and are filled with enthusiasm as you do. you aren't quite ready to roll, but when you watch your sister, i think it will happen soon. you are so sensitive, especially to loud sounds (including when myself or your dad sneezes) and sometimes it makes you cry. you, too, have started to talk and grunt as often as possible. you make us laugh everyday with your expressive eyebrows and silly faces. you are camera shy, just like your sister, and we are praying you outgrow this so that we can capture all of your fun and silly (& even sad) expressions, noises and faces for you to enjoy one day too! you are becoming so fun and amazingly gorgeous little one...we are so in love with you!
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