MERRY CHRISTMAS !!

We pray your days are filled with jingle bells & angels singing.

With Love, 

Alan, Jaclyn, Maelyn & Svea 

Eve, Ivy, Patience, Willow & Harley too 

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1 month

 Maelyn (left) & Svea (right) 

:: still can't believe these are our babies & there isn't a day that goes by where i don't thank God for the gift of them 

:: breastfeeding twins is quite the undertaking! i am so thankful my body is able to do so, but have to admit, i spend all of my days in our comfy rocker chair in their nursery, feeding one, trying to keep the other calm, then feeding the other....and repeating the steps.  i would love to tandem and have attempted multiple times, but we have a little 'latch issue' with our sweet maelyn so for right now, it's one after the other

:: sleep is non-existant and i am amazed at God's grace when he sustains me through this...gifting me an overflowing heart of thanksgiving for the ability to stay up at night and nourish and love on His two miracles 

:: life outside of our home is none but to be honest, it's just how i like it! i am fearful i'm becoming a hermit because my desire to leave or see anyone is zero....but hope that it's just due to the fact that i know my responsibility right now is to care for my newbies

:: blessings have been showered upon us continually and i have to admit, the meals that people are providing have done wonders for our soul, our minds and our stress.  i love to cook, but taking that pressure off of me to plan meals & grocery trips has been HUGE. Thank you God for the gift of friends and loved ones who take the time to make a meal for us to enjoy in the evenings...it is wonderful. 

:: animals have been awesome, and by awesome, i mean uberly fantastically awesome.  i have the two greatest dogs in the world who have patience, concern, protection, and love for these babies already. i plan on doing a whole post just about them. 

:: marriage has been growing and stretched and growing some more. it's amazing how much survival mode can take away from one another, how frustrated you can become with the one person you love ridiculously because of sleep deprivation and at the same time, how much your heart can grow in love with them when you peek across the room and see them rocking your children and caring for these innocent souls the way you would.  i am growing more in love with my husband every single day. 

:: self care is none.  and this is definitely one area that i am okay with sacrificing for now, but may need to schedule it in every once in awhile.  like go get a hair cut at the hair salon.  or maybe start running again.  showering! i need to start making time each day to shower! how wonderful my soul feels when i shower!  

the list could go on and on...but i just wanted to write a few of the things down that i want to remember and smile about, capture in words for eternity and create into my own little journal of memories.  since all moms know, the memory is definitely minimal these days. ;) 

and for your enjoyment; we had pictures taken by a friend last week and i am in love with them.  hope they bring a smile to your face as well!! :) 

happy birthday to my love. . .

dear alan  

from the first days of our infertility journey, to the first night running back and forth (literally) to the NICU to visit our sweet Svea and then back to me & Maelyn. . . 

to the glorifying our God, crying and loving on our two little miracles . . . 

... and through the sleepless nights and days where you snuggle them on your chest, sometimes bare and sometimes not . . .

...and for all the days in between 14 years ago when we first met to today,  THANK YOU.

You gave me a new hope for love.   You gave me new hope for a future filled with dreams coming true and saying hello instead of goodbye.

You gave me our little miracles.  And all the love we feel when we look at them ... times that by a thousand, because that is how much I have and will always love you. Always.

You are my favorite man on this earth, and one of my greatest blessings ever.

God has been so good to me.

Happy Birthday lover.

Love all your girls (Fur babies & non-fur babies)

Eve, Ivy, Patience, Willow, Harley --- Svea & Maelyn  xo xo